Beating back the demons

Seriously, I am alive. Its been a rough couple of weeks, but I am ready to get back into the swing of things. After all, I only have 27 more days until my 30th. So far that 30 by 30 thing.... was going great, until my emotional breakdown. But even with as much crap that I have crammed in my gullet I sill have not gained weight. WooHoo! I am down 13 pounds, so just over half way until that 30, but I am not going to let myself be bummed out if I don't make it. Unless I put back on that 13 that I already lost.
Anyway to make myself get out of this little funk that I have been in, I ordered something super cool. Well cool to me anyway. AND IT CAME YESTERDAY!
I know I tend to get a little preachy about being a vegetarian, but its only because I know how much better for you it is then eating meat and animal products. It really is guys. I have read the research and it just makes sense. I know its hard to give it up. Trust me I know, but I also know how much healthier you can be without it. I am still working on eliminating all dairy products..... that is hard hard hard. But I also know its worth it.



So, I haven't ordered a full year subscription of this mag, but I am planning to when I get settled in SoCal. I just ordered a couple of back issues. I think I might have to order all of them, they are so great. Lots of recipes, green education, special interest stuff. Just awesome! I can't find them here at any magazine stand or bookstore, but they might be in B&N in Idaho Falls? If so will somebody let me know? Anyway I just feel like the more you educate yourself the more understanding you get about, well I guess anything in life. But for my particular passion these days, health. S many people bury their heads in the sand. I know. Sometimes its just easier that way. But I choose the opposite approach, hey mom look learning can be fun..... unless its in an educational setting, sorry BFFH. ,)

The Uphill

Its been a while yes? Well I still didn't win the lottery so I still don't have a home computer, so I have to update at work, and I was sick two days last week. Excuses Excuses right? Well I noticed that you fine ladies forgot to include me on your workout e-mails...... or maybe because I took a few days off so did you? Stop it!
Anyway the real topic of this blog today is Summit on the Summit. So you all know I am a vegetarian borderline hippie/Eco-freak. Well I have been waiting for this special to come on tv called Summit on the Summit. It finally did on Sunday night. It was awesome! It was about a group of celebrities and how they climbed Mt. Kilimanjaro to help make people aware off the clean water crisis happening in our world.
These guys trained for a while to be ready for this adventure, but they were still barley hanging on at some moments in their 7 day climb. I was awestruck. Here I was in my comfy bed in my warm room and I couldn't help but think how lame I was because I had a head cold last week.
For some reason if everything is not in line with my daily schedule then it throws off my whole week. For example, if my kitchen is not clean then I don't cook so I end up eating cheese rolls at Taco Bell. Or If I take a couple days off then in my head that means no work outs for the week. So silly. I am a creature of habit. If anything upsets my balance I kinda just give up.
Which brings me back to Summit on the Summit. These guys were pushed to the extreme both physically and mentally. They were out of their comfort zone from the first second they stepped foot in Africa. And I can't make it to the gym because I don't have clean towels because I didn't do the laundry last weekend? LAME!
So I am calling myself out on my bullshit.
Bullshit that I can't work harder and reach my goals faster. Now I don't think I will be climbing any Mt. Kilimanjaro anytime soon, but maybe someday. I guess my point is, there are so many hard things in this world, in our lives. Taking 15 minutes or 1 hour out of our days to make you the best you should not be one of those things.

By the Numbers

So I already said I was not going to get caught up by numbers on this venture. But sometimes its hard not too. Especially since I feel like I have been working my buns off and the scale should be moving a little more than it is. Now don't tell me the rules. I know all the rules "muscle weighs more than fat, water weight, blah blah blah" I however think that still sucks! I kinda have to look at the numbers a little anyway because of my 30 by 30 goal I set and my Coach 60 although I think that might become a computer 60. I really miss a home computer.
Anyway even though I would like the scale to move a little more, I really don't care what it says in the end if my cloths are fitting right and I no longer have to shop in the chubby section.