Oh October

October got a little bit away from me! Eeek! I started my class and I got a little bogged down trying to figure out how to make my life work. I think I got it now! Today I went to the gym. I think its been almost a month since I went and that is NOT GOOD! I had to start over. A month ago I was walk/running 4 miles in an hour and today I got over two miles in 35 minutes. One thing I have learned in this journey is that your body, unfortunately does not like it when you take time off and will make you rework up to where you were before. So that was a sweaty mess today. But I got it done! The video I posted last week is such an inspirational thing for me. I put it on my playlist that I made last night. If you have a second go listen to it. It hits it right on the head. So I am hoping to get my tush out of bed every morning because I want this bad! "As bad as I want to breath"

How Bad Do You Want It? (Success) HD

Best Friends

I had a mini melt down early this week and luckily for me BFFH was there to talk me down from my crazy. Every once in a while I start to question my life. I am sure everybody does it, but when I do it., I go mental. I am pretty good at shaking things off. Maybe those who really know me don't agree, but honestly I have to keep going, keep pushing or else I feel like this gift of life is wasted. My roommate and I have a running joke of becoming shut-ins. We would balloon up to 750lbs and have to have the firefighters cut a hole in the wall to get us out when we die. I gotta tell you, sometimes the thought staying home and doing nothing but watching tv and eating pizza sounds A-MA-Zing! But those days are few and far between. Plus I gotta live my life yo!
Anyway back to what I was saying. BFFH is helping me with my goals. I have a really good support system anyway, but BFFH is the best friend that everybody needs. She is somebody that pushes you to be better than yourself. I think I am the best friend who tells you what I think, even though you didn't ask me. Rude... I am working on it. So for the last couple days H has been sending me texts and emails reminding me of my goals. Bless her heart. Sometimes I wonder how I got so lucky in my life to have such amazing friends. I am serious. They rock, be jealous.

 I set a goal, but I am not telling anybody that goal except for BFFH and I am really going to work on achieving it. Because as much as they are a support to me, letting friends down is not cool. So that is a good motivator.

Sometimes I need to find my motivation, even if is silly.