Oh October

October got a little bit away from me! Eeek! I started my class and I got a little bogged down trying to figure out how to make my life work. I think I got it now! Today I went to the gym. I think its been almost a month since I went and that is NOT GOOD! I had to start over. A month ago I was walk/running 4 miles in an hour and today I got over two miles in 35 minutes. One thing I have learned in this journey is that your body, unfortunately does not like it when you take time off and will make you rework up to where you were before. So that was a sweaty mess today. But I got it done! The video I posted last week is such an inspirational thing for me. I put it on my playlist that I made last night. If you have a second go listen to it. It hits it right on the head. So I am hoping to get my tush out of bed every morning because I want this bad! "As bad as I want to breath"

How Bad Do You Want It? (Success) HD

Best Friends

I had a mini melt down early this week and luckily for me BFFH was there to talk me down from my crazy. Every once in a while I start to question my life. I am sure everybody does it, but when I do it., I go mental. I am pretty good at shaking things off. Maybe those who really know me don't agree, but honestly I have to keep going, keep pushing or else I feel like this gift of life is wasted. My roommate and I have a running joke of becoming shut-ins. We would balloon up to 750lbs and have to have the firefighters cut a hole in the wall to get us out when we die. I gotta tell you, sometimes the thought staying home and doing nothing but watching tv and eating pizza sounds A-MA-Zing! But those days are few and far between. Plus I gotta live my life yo!
Anyway back to what I was saying. BFFH is helping me with my goals. I have a really good support system anyway, but BFFH is the best friend that everybody needs. She is somebody that pushes you to be better than yourself. I think I am the best friend who tells you what I think, even though you didn't ask me. Rude... I am working on it. So for the last couple days H has been sending me texts and emails reminding me of my goals. Bless her heart. Sometimes I wonder how I got so lucky in my life to have such amazing friends. I am serious. They rock, be jealous.

 I set a goal, but I am not telling anybody that goal except for BFFH and I am really going to work on achieving it. Because as much as they are a support to me, letting friends down is not cool. So that is a good motivator.

Sometimes I need to find my motivation, even if is silly.

Dream Specific

I gave myself a little break this week. I was lazy sick. Honestly I lost a little momentum. I will not reach my goal of 60 miles this September month but I am hoping to get another 8/10 done by Sunday. I am over my little self indulgent week, and ready to get back on track. I had this amazing dream last night. It ended with me running a marathon and weighing a lot less! Like 110lbs. I don't know why that dream was so specific, but I liked it a lot. It gave me motivation to keep going. I have next summer in my head for me for sure but also for BFFE. Its going to be a fun summer and it will be nice to feel good and look good in my own skin. specific

Chub Rub

Uggg, So here is a super fun topic to talk about today. I am rubbing the skin off underneath my boobs. Its one of those kinds of days people. I have had the same sports bra for ever and I need a new one real bad. I guess it decided it didn't want to work for me anymore because no I have two very painful marks underneath both boobs. I have band-aids on, but still I am not having fun. Most of you people know that I have huge jugs. They started growing around 3rd grade and today draw many an eye. I used to hate them, especially when I was in high school and Jr. high. But now I have embraced the bodaciousness of these gigantic tatas. They fit my body don't get me wrong, I am not going to topple over but still they are pretty big.

My SILD said that Boise had a really good place where you could get a good sports bra but when I called they didn't go up to the size I needed. Story of my life! I have one more place that I am going to try before I hit up the google, but freak they are expensive. Like 50 bucks expensive. I personally think a sports bra should pay me to hold these suckers, but hey... in a perfect world. Tomorrow is my off day at the gym and I am hoping my boobs have time to heal, because I cant stop working out and I cant afford a new one yet.

Crazy Gym Day

So I made my way to the gym today. I knew I was going to push for those 4 miles today. And guess what, I totally did it. Not without some weirdness. So I step on the treadmill and get my music started and I start getting into my groove, and then maybe 1 minute into the song my ipod dies! EEEK! It actually just ran down on the battery but I had just started. I laughed and kinda started to panic. I had 4 miles to go and I needed some beats to get me through it. So I finally found MTV after a few minutes and when I looked down I had already knocked out 1.30 of my 4 miles! Woohoo!  I have to have music, I cant just watch tv shows on the cool monitors on the tread because I push myself to the songs. For example. I would start off at a 3.7 mph and walk until that song is over and then the next song I go to a 3.9 and so on and so on. Then I go back down and come back up. I read somewhere that intervals like that actually are more effective at burning fat. I don't know. All I know is it makes myself push harder and sometimes when that long ass We the Kings song comes on with I am pushing my 4.1 I want to die. So without my music today I was freaked out until I realized MTV sometimes still plays music, and especially in the mornings. So Win for me today.

Also I sweat like a freaking pig. Its pretty much amazing. I leave with my shirt completely wet. There is a nice ring around my collar that may or may not reach my boobs. I am kind of embarrassed of it, but then also I think its kickass that I sweat so much. I know that means I am working suppa hard. I hate those girls that wear tiny outfits to the gym and come in with makeup on and kinda work out. But mostly not. Give me a break.